I have to keep reminding myself to breathe. No, it's not for myself. I know I'll be fine and have a great time . But the fact that I will be away from the people I love is what makes me cry. It's what the pit in my stomach is fretting about. I want somebody to actually jump into my suitcase so I won't feel quite so lonely.
Okay, maybe it is a little selfish. But comn', can you blame me?
I said goodbye to everyone last night and each time someone left, we exchanged a sob or two.
Six months isn't that long, but right now it feels like an eternity.
I will for sure put this blog to use now.
I love you all and miss you already. <3
Bye for now.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
All you need is horses.
6 days left. I couldn't be any more excited. :)
I already miss you all but I'm ready to go have the time of my life. I'm going to try my hardest to be the best horsewoman I can be and there's nothing stopping me. I will make sure to update this blog a lot more than I have been (even though I'm not so great at it). And thanks to modern technology, I can talk to you guys free through Skype. Feel free to chat me up! My username is ginger.coleman3.
I hope (and know) that this journey will gain me a huge leg-up in my career with horses. I can't wait to see where life leads me.
I already miss you all but I'm ready to go have the time of my life. I'm going to try my hardest to be the best horsewoman I can be and there's nothing stopping me. I will make sure to update this blog a lot more than I have been (even though I'm not so great at it). And thanks to modern technology, I can talk to you guys free through Skype. Feel free to chat me up! My username is ginger.coleman3.
I hope (and know) that this journey will gain me a huge leg-up in my career with horses. I can't wait to see where life leads me.
Friday, September 2, 2011
38 days left in the US.
I bought my plane ticket a couple days ago, so now it's official. It's real.
Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my best friend Noelle, who is going off to college at Steven's Point. I'm excited for her, but of course I will miss her dearly. We've been friends for 12 years. It's amazing to think that it's been that long. As they say, time flies when you're having fun, and I certainly have lots of great fun with her. Good thing she's coming to visit me in Germany!
Good luck to everyone heading on their way to the next path in life.
Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my best friend Noelle, who is going off to college at Steven's Point. I'm excited for her, but of course I will miss her dearly. We've been friends for 12 years. It's amazing to think that it's been that long. As they say, time flies when you're having fun, and I certainly have lots of great fun with her. Good thing she's coming to visit me in Germany!
Good luck to everyone heading on their way to the next path in life.
38 days left in the US.
Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my best friend Noelle, who is going off to college at Steven's Point. I'm excited for her, but of course I will miss her dearly. We've been friends for 12 years. It's amazing to think that it's been that long. As they say, time flies when you're having fun, and I certainly have lots of great fun with her. Good thing she's coming to visit me in Germany!
Good luck to everyone heading on their way to the next path in life.
Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my best friend Noelle, who is going off to college at Steven's Point. I'm excited for her, but of course I will miss her dearly. We've been friends for 12 years. It's amazing to think that it's been that long. As they say, time flies when you're having fun, and I certainly have lots of great fun with her. Good thing she's coming to visit me in Germany!
Good luck to everyone heading on their way to the next path in life.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
So...
I found a place (for real this time) where I will go to be a working student in Germany. It looks like a nice place with nice people. Their website is www.cavallis.com
I will be working six days a week doing everything besides mucking stalls, all day, in exchange for lessons. I'm going to be living in the apartment above the barn.
I am super excited, of course, but now that it is actually starting to seem real to me, I cannot help but feel scared, sad, and homesick. I just want to pack up all of my friends and family with me. You guys mean so much to me that it's been hard to think about leaving everybody behind. I know in all reality that I really won't be gone that long but right now it feels like it will be eons. I also worry that something bad will happen when I'm gone. Hopefully I'm wrong. Luckily, the people I'm working for said that I could leave whenever I want.
I know it seems silly to even think about quitting halfway through with something this big just to be back home. But I've only ever been out of the country once. For a week. And I don't think, as a matter of fact, that I've been away from home for more than a week. So you see, this really is a stressful thing for me to think about. I'm just throwing myself into it, but I guess it's for the best.
Two months left at home.
Here goes nothing.
P.S. I forgot to mention: my riding instructor doesn't speak english... :O Ahhhhhhhhhh!
I found a place (for real this time) where I will go to be a working student in Germany. It looks like a nice place with nice people. Their website is www.cavallis.com
I will be working six days a week doing everything besides mucking stalls, all day, in exchange for lessons. I'm going to be living in the apartment above the barn.
I am super excited, of course, but now that it is actually starting to seem real to me, I cannot help but feel scared, sad, and homesick. I just want to pack up all of my friends and family with me. You guys mean so much to me that it's been hard to think about leaving everybody behind. I know in all reality that I really won't be gone that long but right now it feels like it will be eons. I also worry that something bad will happen when I'm gone. Hopefully I'm wrong. Luckily, the people I'm working for said that I could leave whenever I want.
I know it seems silly to even think about quitting halfway through with something this big just to be back home. But I've only ever been out of the country once. For a week. And I don't think, as a matter of fact, that I've been away from home for more than a week. So you see, this really is a stressful thing for me to think about. I'm just throwing myself into it, but I guess it's for the best.
Two months left at home.
Here goes nothing.
P.S. I forgot to mention: my riding instructor doesn't speak english... :O Ahhhhhhhhhh!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Yikes.
Emotions are running high 'round here.
Although I am done with high school forever, the stress hasn't stopped. I still have my PSEO class to finish up, horses to train, a show season to make sense of, things to do, places to see, etc., etc..
All of this made my stress override my calm, contained self and I had a meltdown. Yikes. But I'm back. I'm fine. Everything will fall into place.
Another thing that has had me bothered lately has to do with animal slaughter. The other day, I found a video that the Gentle Barn posted on YouTube. They rescued four calves whom were victims of the dairy industry. Had the Gentle Barn not saved them, they would be in a package or digested through the human digestive system, labeled "veal". After watching this video with my mom, we made an effort to become vegans. We hadn't realized until now how much the dairy industry kills animals. After being a vegetarian all my life (18 years), I always thought how much good I was doing by not eating animals. It was good, but it was certainly not enough. There are so many reasons that outweigh consuming animal products that it is worth taking that extra step. It feels selfish not to. I have become much more aware of what I eat, drink, and buy. And it's completely and totally worth it.
I encourage you, if you are a meat consumer, to try to be go vegetarian for a day. Then a week. Keep going when you find out that it isn't as hard and you might have thought, because after a while, it isn't hard at all. Or you could refrain from eating meat once a week. You could save hundreds of lives. The only way to stop something is to stop doing what you don't like.
I know I sound like a crazy PETA whacko, but I wouldn't do it if it were something I feel so strongly about. Think about the animals who were born to die.
Have empathy.
No news on my Germany trip, by the way. It kinda got postponed until I'm all done with my PSEO.
Well...
bye.
P.S. Think.
Although I am done with high school forever, the stress hasn't stopped. I still have my PSEO class to finish up, horses to train, a show season to make sense of, things to do, places to see, etc., etc..
All of this made my stress override my calm, contained self and I had a meltdown. Yikes. But I'm back. I'm fine. Everything will fall into place.
Another thing that has had me bothered lately has to do with animal slaughter. The other day, I found a video that the Gentle Barn posted on YouTube. They rescued four calves whom were victims of the dairy industry. Had the Gentle Barn not saved them, they would be in a package or digested through the human digestive system, labeled "veal". After watching this video with my mom, we made an effort to become vegans. We hadn't realized until now how much the dairy industry kills animals. After being a vegetarian all my life (18 years), I always thought how much good I was doing by not eating animals. It was good, but it was certainly not enough. There are so many reasons that outweigh consuming animal products that it is worth taking that extra step. It feels selfish not to. I have become much more aware of what I eat, drink, and buy. And it's completely and totally worth it.
I encourage you, if you are a meat consumer, to try to be go vegetarian for a day. Then a week. Keep going when you find out that it isn't as hard and you might have thought, because after a while, it isn't hard at all. Or you could refrain from eating meat once a week. You could save hundreds of lives. The only way to stop something is to stop doing what you don't like.
I know I sound like a crazy PETA whacko, but I wouldn't do it if it were something I feel so strongly about. Think about the animals who were born to die.
Have empathy.
No news on my Germany trip, by the way. It kinda got postponed until I'm all done with my PSEO.
Well...
bye.
P.S. Think.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Hey y'all.
It's been awhile since I've acknowledged this blog. Mostly because there hasn't been much news. We're still figuring out arrangements for Germany, passport, etc., and meanwhile, I'm scrambling to finish up the last month (!) of my high school career. Pretty crazy, if you ask me.
Part of this scrambling is because of my senior project about horsemanship. I've been looking at natural horsemanship, as well as the old fashioned ways of the stereotypical cowboys and trying to figure out what philosophies I agree with. And guess what, they're all wrong. Every person in the market of selling their horsemanship (Perelli or Clinton Anderson, for example) is in it for the money. Have you ever noticed that when someone decides to set down straightforward rules, that they only ever work for them and a select few people? There's a reason for that. In all reality, the only horsemanship that really works is logic.
If you don't punish your horse, they'll never respect you and take the role as leader. If you beat them, they'll be frightened by every move you make. There is a fine line and the only way to grasp it is to be with your horse as much as you can if you want to be successful in what you do. Study horse behavior and psychology, especially stuff about herds in the wild. Learn about what other horse people do and decide what you agree or disagree with. What's logical to horse? What isn't? Think through your horse's eyes. There's always a reason they do what they do.
Part of this scrambling is because of my senior project about horsemanship. I've been looking at natural horsemanship, as well as the old fashioned ways of the stereotypical cowboys and trying to figure out what philosophies I agree with. And guess what, they're all wrong. Every person in the market of selling their horsemanship (Perelli or Clinton Anderson, for example) is in it for the money. Have you ever noticed that when someone decides to set down straightforward rules, that they only ever work for them and a select few people? There's a reason for that. In all reality, the only horsemanship that really works is logic.
If you don't punish your horse, they'll never respect you and take the role as leader. If you beat them, they'll be frightened by every move you make. There is a fine line and the only way to grasp it is to be with your horse as much as you can if you want to be successful in what you do. Study horse behavior and psychology, especially stuff about herds in the wild. Learn about what other horse people do and decide what you agree or disagree with. What's logical to horse? What isn't? Think through your horse's eyes. There's always a reason they do what they do.
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